losing it

[turbogrrl]

I turned in an utterly crap paper last night. I can't focus. I've been crying on and off for the last few hours. I should go to school, but I've managed to lose my sunglasses somewhere on campus, which means that I can't even hide my blotchy eyes behind sunglasses.

I'd hop on the motorcycle, but in the way of motorized vehicles owned by me it has decided to break: been stalling and surging unpredictably, leaving me stranded. Hans has gotten in on the act, lighting up his oil lights like a christmas tree while I was on the beltway going to pick a friend up at the airport.

I have classes I have to get to, despite the fact that I do not have any homework ready for any of them.

I am worried for a friend. I am worried I am not a good enough friend.

There is a stabbing pain in my head like little explosives have gone off in my skull.

And I can't get a stupid nightmare of a conversation out of my head, it is playing over and over like a non-stop soundtrack, and despite the fact that I should just let it go, it's causing me to question pretty much everything in my life.

yup.

Comments

[slightlymadmom.livejournal.com]

*hugs* sounds like a lot is going on, all at once. hope it helps to know that there are people who care about you.

[prakriti.livejournal.com]

Oh honey. I wish I could help. You ok? Want me to pop on to AIM?

[turbogrrl.livejournal.com]

probably not... I've discovered that if I try and talk about it, I start crying again.

[edamame.livejournal.com]

Nadi shodhana or ujayii breath has helped me in times like these. Not a long term fix, but will get you through the mundane.